reflection diary self

 HMM  CLASSES  came back home ani went to repair scooter ko stand took fucking hours dont trust tyo mechanic people hmm took a tempo went to basantapur went to meet her couldnt meet anupam  came home ate boiled eggs instead of fried ones that's all tbh slept pretty early didfive pushups

 hmm today bihana woke up late changed bed sheet and washed hair no himalyan no boiled eggs aaja first class comm second class politics came back home EI event muji wilde time consuming yaar hmm  came back home after dropping pranisha bahini that's it tbh ani  ate rice  washed dishes dad came back late and that's about it sitting in a call with her

 was eventful and productive tbh had fun in class and gave gift to  giel's bestie was liked so was validating hmm that's pretty much it arranged groups and did eauta assignment that's all for today also worked out a little ani ate boiled eggs slayyyy

 regular classes econ  dunno communication some personaloty test english a sound of thunder came back home  did assigbments  bought gift for samriddhi  lost himalyan times wtf came back home\ made dinner did assignents  ani asked for gift card turns out that they can do that almost instantly anyway  that';s about ut also econ assignment done and ready forsubmisson but im not really satisfied with it didnt get to workout willl do 10 pushups before bed that's all for today SLAYYY

 went to CNIYEF hmm got some lessons tbh but i'm not sure if it was worth the money all of it aside i did have a decent time i need to eat on time aaba dekhi tbh that's it in a call with her not doing anything productive in particular but life goes on i think i'll workourt but im not sure  lets see what happens  the ngith is not yet over

 I JUST HAD SEX didnt finish tho i did wait alsi  hmm went to anuoams  spent whole day rhwew ani just ate snacks and junk that;s it tbh nothing majorly produtice done

 LIKE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE  TRY TO MOVE OUT STAYING HERE WILL NOT BE BENIFICIAL FOR YOUR GROWTH GET A FLAT AROUND COLLEGE AND MAKE THAT AN OFFICE PLUS WORKPLACE HMM WHAT YOU SHOULD DO NEEDS TO BE FIGURED OUT

 went to meet her  completed all assignments got head and nutted went to restaurant and ate used bus and walked tbh\ cameback home worked out ate jaulo  SICKNESS STILL PERSISTS need to clean up and finish all work

 went to class and came back home after communcation ko assignment submitted on this day planned to meet her but didnt go because was ill (sickness started today) cancelled classes with L. B sir did nothing of great significance played hero wars  (ass experience)\ stayed on a call with her at night 

went to kaalo with her but was closed  didnt do anything of great significance  went to a restaurant  ate momo (was suprrisingly goood) two sausages and two mountaion dews went to labim to pee \ came back home after dropping her that's all tbh didnt do a lot

wrote this from mobile but idk it didnt get thru raicha  anyway i went to bhaktapur and met binisha bahini  did a lot  and was fun roj and bahini made a clay pot  oooh ok that's all i'll let ya'll know if i do anything interesting thank you for taggin along besties\ the last few days have been emotionally hectic because i have undine assignments  i need to decompress and do all the work i need to do that's all for today staying busy

 feeeling sleepy on a call wilde yaar went to jhamsikhel with friends ate riec twice went to pickroj up and she paid for everything today also did nothing productive aaja  wilde i wanna die and sleep lau

 journaling while on a calling  ani  wint type a lot hola did nothing tbh scheduled classes and played hero wars and read novels all day  no workout and ate eggs thp read himalyan and idk  that;s it

 bihana no work  went to meet suyog at ranibari after dropping fueled spent the whole day met saurya's bf (naam birsye feri mck) talked about weed and planned accordingly after that  went to basantapur and then met GIRL and ger friends  dropped girl home and came back that's all for this day tbh was major tired and my vibes were all off i slept at around 1 hola a anyway that's all for this day besties

woke up  did stuff ani left for college via two wheeler oday there were three classes politics - general introduction, further onto the chapter maths- sir arrived late and then left class ended in between need to facilitate a makeup class and need to call faculty and decide date and all for makeup classes accounts- presentation, sir scored generously but topic was easy so meh was good overall immidiately after presentation went to meet her ate keema naan ani dropped her home and came back  read himalyan times ani then light snacking did nothing too productive didnt get off hmm that;s about it 5/10 day hmm i planned to not meet her but still met her. is that good or bad i cant tell tbh anyway that's all for today  see you all tomorrow

 today was an ok day went to class first englush  finihsed pinjara ko suuga aaba need to do homework aniiii aaba feri accounts recharged canteen and bought book tara mck purano wala diyo ani  after that went to meet roj went to a lot of places that's it tbh ani came back home after dropping her  read milylan ate one boiled eggs worked out  now let's see what happens in the night

 hmm today  was a break met suyof and anupam early in the morning and ate at thamel/jamal/basantaour ate guamari tea (black and milk both) momo doughnut malupwa that's all ani  came back home ate rice met GIRL ani  went to jawlakhel together came back home petriolled cooked ani  that's it 15 pushups  now sleeping mildly productive day got off tho that's all for today besties

 woke up at an ok hour did all cleanup and skincreshowered left for class first class macro econ circular flow of income second class politics learnt about unit 1 aka politics aniii after that played basketball dropped binisha added petrol met GIRL took her shopping and bought colour corrector came back ate momo and coke dropped scooter at sankhamul cycled back home went to meet roj again (tempo)  siddartha art gallery bla bla blaa dropped her and came back home ate )cooked too( did nothing in particular did skincare no workout sleeping now soon talked to GIRL till 11

 didnt do ,uch got off need to get woek done tbh ate ok met roj for a while  no news red  was a saturday so meh

 Saturday  Aka day of rot  Accomplished nothing today lesgooo  Hmm i cut avacado tree with mom  No eggs  Mild exercise No work done

 got off twice matched kundalis online wilde ate bouled eggs  mango met girl  no score  i did nothing of significance today i will get better in the days to come.

 I cut my girl's inside with my fingers lmaoooo two classes politics and communuction usde 2 wheeler  went to class retunrned from class went to anamnagar met boo went to sankhamul went to patan went to kaalo gave head that;s all i feel sick and might skip classes tomorrow

 i dont feel very well i feel horrible infact i could have gotten a lot done but i am not getting shit donee im pushing work away and want to drown in leisure  i wanna kms  this is getting frustrating anyway yoday there were two classes comm classes had to be cancellled due to miscommunicaton from my side idk what to do aaiyaa let's list out the reasons why i could possibly feeling bad insuffucent attention from her miscommunication in communication classes that caused me to feel bad not having recharged canteen card tomorrow's plans being cancelled educational burden not being able to work on my business plans my hands smelling like onions physycal unwellness me getting off when i didnt even want to in the first place not looking nice when a camera is pointed at me being forced to do things i dont really want to do not being able to focus on myself  not being able to rot without feeling terrible messy room hair nose not gettting stuff done at all also i had two clas...

 i wonder what's stopping me frm getting started is it the overarching expectations that i've set for myself or is it the fear of failure that comes from the though of not meeting them. ok maybe i'm being a little dramaticc, i'll take a walk to cool myself off maybe not  but also fr ong i really need to get started on work this is not it my bestie

Makeup classes of accounts, I'm fucking tired, aaba herum, i will sleep aaba muji ati bho

 Didn't journal Was out with Suyog  Super Wilde night will journal later  Very risky night didn't sleep at all

 you're doing ok,  calm down it's not the end of the world to fail it's a part of the process. You cant learn if you never trip, just improve you can always do that it's ok to trip  but you need to learn to pick yourself up also this shi lowkey theraupeatic

 got off twice (porn and tok) met girl ate one boiled egg 3 classes learnt concept of macroeconomics why we go to university (assignment) ani communication upto types and meduims didnt do anything business related need to tho fr fr ong need to do something for roj too hmm worked out and did skincare as usual trusting the process as the old me would say observing mild acne, might or might not need to try different products. that's all for today besties  see you

 doing enough a a university student but not enough as an entreprenuer  i completed my basic skincare routine but amobserving slight acne as of now day 1 of skincare i giess? i worked out and hope to continue working out in further days i met samyak and dalla (twt people) used scooter to travel and loaded two litres of petrol  i need to find an app to track my finances  wait i have one, i should use it didnt get off day was decent i guesss? i still need to fulfill my business quota, pride month is coming soon

 nothing bad but no significant progress either met girl went on  a shopping spreee spent about 2500(WILDE) ani ate got head and finished myself off basantaour funn need to get work done worked out a little on a call with girl ahile bought laddoo for mom finakky have a skincare routine

woke up sleepy went to class political bu maths - didnt understand ramrari but seems to be about calculus accounts- course outline ani chapter one ko halka met roj gave necklace ani 4 crispellos didnt eat eggs didnt get off that;s it folks stay tuned for more mental state is decent and i dont want to kill myself

 bruh hijo ko draft publish bhayena jaasto cha anyway blig for first day of new semester  met syuog and anupam  ani had two classes faculty didnt attened second class fuck the faculties tbh also got off to hentai, idk i somehow dont feel bad, i'm just mistly numb to things maybe? aaiya i'll get things done anyhow also an insight on the emotional turmoil would be nice but i'll wait for it to come i dont know what i'm saying at this point anyway that;s all for today  thtanks for listening besties/