reflection diary self

 today was a mediocre day I guess I need to start focusing in class bholi bihana first bench ma basney ho j hos not the best day I've had but definitely not the wirst  HEALTH  ok SKIN  ok DIET ate two fried eggs FITNESS worked out light EDUCATION hahah INCOME GENERATION planned opened page STREAKS didnt get off no himalyan PLACES I WENT TO nowhere ghar nahi basye GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT had a long conversation with miss gf enjoyed it tbh it related to our plans in life and was fun to talk about it not the most comfortable but a necessary conversation

 so I'll make a tentative plan that'll help me move out by mid august feb  start evileye.shop figure out how to run and all the deets  march  April may  June July august 17th

 aaiyaaa idk  too tired to journal at this point ta jaado paani bhyo j hos aja chaii  HEALTH  ok SKIN  ok DIET nope FITNESS nope EDUCATION attended 3 classes  40 days till the  semester ends INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS idk yet PLACES I WENT TO chhauni to bake eddies GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT bahahaha j hos not a bad day but not a good one either

 a day late journalled becos I was v sleepy and slept on call with miss gf j hos met oomf dtoday was a very fun day hung out at multiple places including their home yayy  HEALTH  fine tbh, I ate ice cream so I fully expected a cold, but the yolo attitude kinda worked? I'm completely fine SKIN  good enough, no major breakout even after eating ice cream and cake DIET not very strict ngl  FITNESS didnt workout EDUCATION aaiya attended half a class of economics INCOME GENERATION mid? I guess. j hos didnt reallly generate anything STREAKS got off and read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO dipta's and places around naxal GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT j hos  I learnt to be more passionate more caring and more accepting of things the kinder you are the better don't let people take advantage of you tho j hos was a very fun and fulfilling day raati chai cut cake for mom also I play games a lot I need to play games only at a specified time of the day no gaming bihana and deuso ...

   HEALTH  tired, but good. posture not so good SKIN  getting worse because of the cake I ate DIET wew, anyway ate an egg in the morning FITNESS too tired to workout EDUCATION didnt study INCOME GENERATION haha STREAKS man PLACES I WENT TO a. lot tbh aaja ta chandragiri kulekhani chitlang chobar j hos travelled 117 kms GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT aaiyaaaà j hos had a lot of fun aaja  but it was mom's birthday and I didnt  celebrate

   HEALTH  ok ngl SKIN  ate cake aaja deco gonna get worse but fuck it we ball DIET ate two fried eggs FITNESS aaiya, j hos Anja rest day ho EDUCATION :(( INCOME GENERATION man STREAKS got off using the thing.... PLACES I WENT TO college and that's it GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT oof j hos celebratefd birthday with friends was defo not a bad day but won't call it a good one

 ok so today was a fun day tbh spent the morning and halka part of the day with miss gf at least for the evening part  HEALTH  never been better, need to work on my posture tho, belly lines lai remove hanney ho aaba SKIN  light acne, the blueberry cheesecake finally taking effect I guess DIET ate chana and lots of daal. skipped eggs becos swarswati pooja FITNESS worked out  EDUCATION studied economics ko online class ko laagi INCOME GENERATION aaiya went outside but no leads yet on this STREAKS got off, not proud PLACES I WENT TO ooh so suru ma I went to KUSOM for attending program but thiyena  took two books on Chinese  and went to kar.ma and had an expresso tespachi met nammi talked dropped her to thassikhel ani dropped her at satdobato ani went to pimbahal and had tea ani went back home GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT read himalyab but skimmed over it mostly ani  went outside and made a 30 year old friend? hopefully that counts as progress aaiya...

belated because I played a lot of games raaati tira and I didnt really have any energy in my body either I think gaming is an issue, like a recurring addiction for myself I need time for myself to reflect on my addictions and every single detail I need to mull over.   HEALTH  ok, no major changed, light ruga khoki thio, sancho bhayo SKIN  ate a blueberry cheesecake, hope it doesn't break out tbh. this day chai one smoll pimple at the  end of nose DIET ate chicken FITNESS didnt workout EDUCATION studied economics ko online class but didnt retain much INCOME GENERATION went to Bouddha indrivered for the first time in a while again STREAKS got off. don't feel that good about it PLACES I WENT TO firs two koteshwor to make pan card then to baneshowr ko bank  then to baneshwoor ko aarko bank teta pana kaaam bhayena GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT w went outside for the first time in a while. feel a lot better about myself j hos nothing is gonna stay...

 aaaiya  I think I got home and started rotting for the most part j hos  HEALTH  ok SKIN  didnt wash face in the evening  DIET ate chicken FITNESS didnt workout  EDUCATION studied two classes finance and business management INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS bought but didnt read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO nowhere other than college GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT bhahahahaha

not the best bbl didnt get much accmomplised at least not as much as I wanted to accomplish by today j hos fuck it we ball  HEALTH  ok, not bad, ruga but insignificant cha SKIN  breaking out a little, I think I'm kinda stressed DIET ate boiled egg x2 ate a super oily samosa  ate some fries and aloo paratha daal bhat x2 FITNESS worked out light since classes cha bholi and I was getting late for class EDUCATION studied two classes but content chai ion remember because I didnt pay attention finance  OB INCOME GENERATION not in the condition to start yet but made plans defo STREAKS didnt get off didnt read himyalyan PLACES I WENT TO to chess to drink tea and to college ofc didnt walk a lit I think my lifestyle is getting super sedentary and Idk how to stop it GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT aaiya ngl not the best as it could be has been better but not as good as I want it to be j hos im geeing my to do for January almost done step by step

 tresy anyway  slayy day  did nothing productive  like NOTHING I wanna kms anywayyy  HEALTH  physically not much has changed I guess. slight ruga and khoki but not significant enough to impact my well being SKIN  minor bumps on forehead and one large dent on the left side of face that I had to drain bought new face wash so let's see what it looks like DIET had oats and two boiled eggs FITNESS worked out back and did some pushups EDUCATION hmm didnt study shit to be honest  but bahira ko stuff learnt a little INCOME GENERATION wow STREAKS got off using the thing can't believe that it feels so but it's heavily desensitizing so I definitely need to stop using it PLACES I WENT TO to buy shampoo and facewash to add petrol didnt walk much ngl GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT BHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA anyway the day was fairly decent can't complain to be fair बकमानजवि

 stayed at home pretty much all day didnt do anything that productive anywayy HEALTH  im ok SKIN  it's ok DIET it's ok FITNESS worked out  EDUCATION Econ ko class INCOME GENERATION did not start today STREAKS got off twice, no regrets tho, was worth it absolutely PLACES I WENT TO ghar matra aaiya very sedentary GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT didnt do much of this nil

 today was the day I celebrated my birthday when out with my friends  j hos a fun dayy I guess it was better than I planned it to be so today chai I went to florist hut bhanney restaurant and then I had my ritual on my birthday  ani so that led  me to  HEALTH  not bad tbh SKIN  I ate a little cake,  DIET ate cake and ate outside food aaiya, no boiled eggs tho FITNESS aaiya today was a rest day for a reason EDUCATION studied BM ko some parts, skipped OB and ecnonimics classes INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS didnt get off PLACES I WENT TO birthday celebrate garna plenty of places GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT nil

 skipped entry  stayed at home pretty much all day  wasn't the best honestly fuck it we ball I hope there's better days because this was rock bottom

 man this is probably the worst way I planned to spend my twenties ko starting lmao I've made some serious progress this year j hos I'm at a much better place than I was at last years I think I can't say for certain tho aaiya a cheers to my twenties  hopefully filled with days of work and life balanced in seems HEALTH  good as new, I definately have tinntus today due to overuse of headphones but the loud music really drowns out the mental noise aaiya SKIN  better, a zit is developing at my forehead but I hope it doesn't, aura ta Saab normal DIET ate one boiled egg FITNESS worked out lower abs and that's about it? EDUCATION studied marketing  ani Nepalese economics ani statistics I NEED TO focus in class even if that means sitting alone in class from today I will get my shit together INCOME GENERATION didnt do anything in particular STREAKS didnt get off read hiimalayn but to myself matra PLACES I WENT TO airport to pick up dad college to study  and uphill t...

 I don't feel like the best person right now I don't know why I feel the way I feel but im struggling with heavy feelings of inadequacy  I hope these feelings don't rein on me forever  rakzor al rafis HEALTH  good tbh, nothing is bad significantly SKIN  getting better by a lot compared to last time, I  DIET ate two eggs through pyaj roti FITNESS worked out but don't feel that good about it EDUCATION studied two classes Ob and finance OB ma took notes of a presentation finance ma paid attention but not as much tbh INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off PLACES I WENT TO ghar to college and back GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT my ears are ringing  I don't think I did anything today  I did read himalyan times tho I guess that sorta counts

  HEALTH  ok SKIN  better than yesterday DIET ate chicken fried rice  FITNESS didnt workout tbh EDUCATION eautra matra class bhp INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS didnt get off PLACES I WENT TO China ghar at baeshwor GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT had a talk with miss gf went outside aaiya didnt play video games today  read himalyan times 

 I plan to live, not bounded by any sort of geography rationality and be unbound in the way that I exist so remember, I will not live according to what preexisting social order says. I will defy and I will do onto death may my actions comply with my will  rakzor al rafis  HEALTH  nothing wring tbh I can't complain about it at all SKIN  getting better than before j hos no noticeable acne as of now DIET ate two boiled eggs and ate tofu and broccoli in the morning  made my signature honey hot lemon tea for myself FITNESS worked out my back and did some pushups  was comparatively more physically active as compared to yesterday EDUCATION didnt study much tbh, maybe I will later in the night INCOME GENERATION hopefully I'll do something tomorrow STREAKS got off, not proud but it did relax me  PLACES I WENT TO to buy himalyan matra, no place else  j hos stayed at home for the majority of the day GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I had a revelation of...

 I mean the title says it all aaiya I gave up on my mid semester exams because I couldn't really study      at all  I was in no condition to   HEALTH  light ruga since I didnt wear sufficient clothes when going out. everything else is all fine. I need to drink more water and build better posture SKIN  light acne from before still persists though disappearing. the one large pimple on the right side of my face seems to be particularly glaring tho DIET ate momo @ kothey's and ate sinki pidalu and rice with saag  FITNESS worked out legs and butt with some pushups  wasn't very physical throughout the day EDUCATION aaiya skipped an exam but completed economics ko assignment 1 by copying from Oscar.  I think I'll study the details aafai still aaba  INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS didnt have the time to get off aaja ta, still had a very fun day  PLACES I WENT TO bihana chai I. went to karma coffee and drank  coffee  a...