reflection diary self

   HEALTH  ok SKIN  not bad one pimple DIET ate two boiled eggs  FITNESS worked out  EDUCATION studied Econ and pimples INCOME GENERATION didnt do much STREAKS read himalyan x21 PLACES I WENT TO college to ghar and ghar to college GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT didnt do much tbh. just stayed at home

 I really really need to fix my posture  I need to remove the. belly lines too  I need to do a lot tbh tara garchu sabai bistarai ok so   HEALTH  ok tbh  mentally much better too SKIN  clearer than yesterday DIET ate one fried egg FITNESS worked out abs  EDUCATION studied a little but of stats and a little bit of finance  INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off PLACES I WENT TO himalyan java jhamsikhel ko GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I'll be  honest, I didn't really get much done tbh I need to start working on that too

 man I'm growing as a person and things are gradually and gradually becoming much better than I initially thought it would  also I love getting hit on ngl aaja chai was an overall decent day  I did have fun paani and it wasn't as draining  I need to start taking aswagandha and try to improve my sleep schedule  good sleep will result in me having a better life  HEALTH  ok SKIN  breaking out  DIET ok FITNESS worked out light  EDUCATION aaiyta  INCOME GENERATION aaiya STREAKS didnt get off PLACES I WENT TO college and back home GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT not much

 aaiya bihana woke at 6 am I dsont remember much of the day  HEALTH  ok  SKIN  light breakouts  DIET at3e chicken and eggs FITNESS worked out light  EDUCATION didnt study shit INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off PLACES I WENT TO divyasha's  GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT\ not much I guess  but mentally in a much better place if I dont stalk her? I guess it feels nice tesari

 went to Bollywood night and had lots of fun  I know it'll be good again but I did have fun I know it was j hos dueso went to meet Pratikala ani drank coffee and bitched about life in genres  ani went to drop amish to grooming tales and bought him ice cream and got him chocolates ani also got him chips spent a total of 460 on amish daaka ani tespachi Bollywood night imma ngl I had the time of my fucking life and I dont regret a single moment lots of fun had, lots of memories made, I live for nights like thiw

 ok so I need to get better as a person. I dont know how and when but I will get better as a person naii j hos I need to learn to do all the things that I wanted to do and not be in a slump anymore.  I maybe not be blocked anymore but I'll never old the same place in her heart again this way I love her I truly do but yes  I need to focus on myself  HEALTH  ok physically and mentally  never could have been better  SKIN  somehow there's a little bit of breakouts  maybe it's a side effect of the aswagandha  DIET ate two boiled eggs and ate rice twice and dues chi ate some junk FITNESS worked out lightly and to my own ability  EDUCATION went to class and studied BM INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS nil PLACES I WENT TO to meet animesh and Raymond GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT worked on myself mentally and physically and will continue to do so one good habit at a time better and greater with every step I take raqzor al...

 the letter did improve my typing skills to an extent I I guess.  J hos hair I know that things aren't the same but they're better for me now.  No more heartburn no more pain  I've let go mostly  I'm healing  it's crazy how little it took but it's nice I guess it's been a week since we stopped talking and I dont regret it at this point I needed this reality check I was gonna get nowhere at that pace, suddenly now I'm living in the present and worrying about my own problems and that's good for me I guess let's go bitches  HEALTH  mentally much better physically paani never been better do need to improve my posture again tho SKIN  halka breakouts bray so changed bedsheets and pillow cases and also will Clean towels and all specifics DIET ate two boiled eggs and chana  FITNESS worked out fucking great  EDUCATION studied and got done with OB ko presentation INCOME GENERATION not much but I'm gonna get started pretty soon STREAKS got off...

  idk man idk  I really need to learn to be by myself  I need to be me and I need to be myself I exist for me and I do things for myself.  I need to love and live me for a while wrote a letter to her aaja  set the date of delivery to 8th march  HEALTH  not the best physically not the best mentally either SKIN  lightly getting some acne  DIET ate two boiled eggs ate rice twice and ate some keema noodles dues FITNESS worked out a little Suyog came so fought a little? EDUCATION not bad gave marketing presentation INCOME GENERATION didnt do much STREAKS didnt get off  PLACES I WENT TO not a lot of places GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I did realize that death was necessary.  once my death is complete, I shall be reborn raqzor al rafis

 idk what happened this day   HEALTH  ok physically  not ok mentally  SKIN  better DIET ate two boiled eggs FITNESS worked out pretty light EDUCATION studied a little INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off thrice PLACES I WENT TO nowhere GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT not much

  Mune ga hachikire-sōde  HEALTH  physically ok mentally not very much SKIN  so much better than before DIET didnt eat boiled eggs  FITNESS worked out light EDUCATION didnt study much INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off  didnt read himalyan didnt bruh PLACES I WENT TO karma to drink coffee GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT nil

 I'm writing this with collected emotions hopefully there's still a tinge of regret for what my relationship with her has ended up as but im not sorry for myself anymore  I do get things and I realize that I need to move on with my life all those things that I didnt do I need to get done and all those things that I hoped to do are things I need to get done all in all I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare  but I need to keep on trying and trying and trying till things get better for me and myself I like these random moments, I live and love for these random moments, I'll never run out of my love for life I will not limit myself because of one single failure I need to work on myself and be better someone else will gladly appreciate me I'm sure I'm certain that things will turn out well in the end so here's to infinity and beyond heck I have to walk most of this road alone and that's kinda exciting I had a companion along the way and we separated though ro...

 today was fun but also chaotic came to Kathmandu first thing in the morning used a public vehicle till shantinagar gate and walked the rest of the way yay exercise ani tespachi chai got home and then got to college ani  that's about it  HEALTH  physically ok mentally still in the pits SKIN  no major breakouts DIET ate two boiled eggs FITNESS haven't worked out properly since I ate pretty late EDUCATION didnt study much INCOME GENERATION idk STREAKS didnt read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO a lot of places also need to pay fine to traffic and get my license back GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT not much

 no recollection of this day either but I do remember it somewhat.  I went to lumbini then to sunwal reminiscenced our break up for the entire day pretty much  ani did travel here and there a little but there's really not much got consider about my life at this point  j hos i was having fun before but I dont know now man

 I have no memory of this day, I think it's because it's my brain trying to protect itself, someday I'll be able to process this grief in full hopefully this day  we broke up the relationship I dunno man things hadn't been well with us and she was having too much to deal with I guess I dont feel like I'm the bad person but I dont care at this point I've moved on for the better and for good I'm still a complex individual, with or without her

  flavourless  yes that's how life feels without her in it but fuck ut we ball raqzor al rafis  HEALTH  slight ruga mentally chai trying to get better but still in rock bottom nail SKIN  broke out due to travel couldn't do skincare in the morning too DIET no source of protein  but that ok since it's Butwal and u'll be leaving pretty soon FITNESS did a few pushups and that's it EDUCATION skipped OB. class because of depreshun  Econ class paani miss nahi bray I guess INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS didnt read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO traveled around Butwal GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I need to be learn to be happy for other people even when I myself am not live and live razor 

 travelled to Butwal On this day  HEALTH  physically no issies mentally ta down the drain naii tara met friends so kinda better SKIN  broke out raaati tirea lack of sleep travel etc DIET aaiya ate tofu so I guess that should count FITNESS not clear tbh EDUCATION didnt study much  stat class thio ra Econ class thio INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off since I'd be leaving the valley not happy about it PLACES I WENT TO a lot of places tbh was fun paani sajha chai travelled to kalanki  then to Butwal GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT learning to go without her is sheer agony but I'm  getting by I guesss

 idk man  bihana  I cried and I broke down I begged her to take me back but it didnt work at all  HEALTH  mental not in the best place physically chai I'm not very energetic as I didnt eat much SKIN  breaking out halka DIET I hab eating disorder FITNESS worked out EDUCATION studied economics ko halka INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO Samana sanga went ghumna GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT not much ngl  rakzor al rafis

 man I still have trouble breathing when she's away I know I said if it doesn't work it doesn't  but I can't stand her absence  HEALTH  physically ok mentally getting by SKIN  ok but bad DIET ate two fried eggs FITNESS worked out light  EDUCATION completed half an assignment INCOME GENERATION aaiya idk STREAKS got off read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO Gahana Pokhari GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT man I dunno if I've grown but I do know that I love her very very much too much for my own good I need to focus on myself

 started break with miss gf I hung out with my friends and now I feel much better I love nights like these  HEALTH  mentally much bwetter physically no issues at all SKIN  light acne but issok because I love myself  DIET ate poached eggs ko curry bihana I think I'm eating nit enough aajkal FITNESS worked out back EDUCATION will study a little before sleep INCOME GENERATION tried but gave up because miss gf made me feel like trash STREAKS got off aaja  dont regret it PLACES I WENT TO bouddha late at night and also to a lot of other places met Binisha's parents  GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I learnt that I need to focus on myself.  my feelings and emotions are important I will learn to validate them but I will admit my mistakes

 I need to not cry anymore I need to be strong  but I also need to be gentle strength lies in being able to control your words and yourself you get to be direct but you dont get to be hurtful be a better you for herself  HEALTH  not bad  mentally chai almost hit rock bottom today SKIN  got a pimple today and drained it out DIET ate two boiled eggs  FITNESS worked out well EDUCATION studied very little INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS didn't get off day 2  PLACES I WENT TO pashupati walked somewhere after a long long time GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I did grow a little aaja as a person sometimes you need to suffer to know what to do better and what not to do

 I'm better than this if this doesn't work out I am gonna make it in my own  I dont need people that constantly put me down and can't compromise  I might be the selfish one but im gonna be selfish I am not gonna beat myself up about this anymore  HEALTH  I'm doing alright SKIN  it's not bad it's ok but not the best DIET I ate a lot of daal didnt eat rice tonight FITNESS worked out light EDUCATION read book on Chinese culture INCOME GENERATION aaja indrivered for a long time STREAKS didnt get off didnt read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO a lot of places tbh bhanyo bhanney ek sheet ma attain GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT I'm gonna be an asshole If that's what I am. this Is what I am  I need to be true to myself dont hesitate anymore dont get stuck up on things if someone can't prioritize you, no reason to prioritize them

 aaja chai morning and dues was not as good as I wanted it to be  j hos  nothing bad has happened as of yet and I think that's a good thing as of now j hos things are nice and I;m having fun I guess  HEALTH  ok, not bad, slight cough SKIN  smoldering pimpol on right side of face, will probably heal by tomorrow hola DIET ate chicken and drank green tea not bad tbh FITNESS worked out v light EDUCATION studied economics bihana INCOME GENERATION applied to jobs and planning to work too STREAKS got off twice read himalyan PLACES I WENT TO go get dendrite and glue  GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENT decided to get over a slump and get shit done I got this and I am getting things done and getting things done right

 j hos  how could I be so fucking stupid  am I fucking deaf blind  or just an idiort j hos aaja chai  HEALTH  ok SKIN  ok DIET nope FITNESS nope EDUCATION ok Econ marketing  INCOME GENERATION nil STREAKS got off no himalyan day 3 PLACES I WENT TO satdobato maitdevi walked nowhere GROWTH AND SELF DEVELOPMENTb bahahaha reflected on past moments aaja sleeping alone but late today not a bad day but I'm gonna make things a lot better after today yayy good for me