reflection diary self

    HEALTH slight khaki SKIN  ok shaved DIET not ok ate momo and popcorn  ani ate chiya at pimbahal protein pugena FITNESS worked out legs bihana and evening too EDUCATION didn't study at all other than economics ko online class bihana INCOME GENERATION didn't  STREAKS didn't get off PLACES I WENT TO patan and jhamiskhel area with Rochak aaiya I really don't know what or how to feel will I regret this? maybe j hos whatever happens happens I learnt a lot this year  I think my main lesson is to keep implementing things for this year chai don't lose sight of your goal  that's the most important thing here's to the end of the year द्दयापी निउ यर aaiya  j hos  whatever happens happens

   HEALTH  ok  SKIN  ok DIET ok FITNESS not ok EDUCATION not ok INCOME GENERATION maybe ok STREAKS got off PLACES I WENT TO college and to new road ro get stuff

   HEALTH  my health is decent nahi not too bad but not too good  I miss being mentally well aaiya also my chest hurts a little SKIN  ok so idk how it's like but it seems to be a lot better than before. hopefully it stays this way DIET so bihana Delhi chai uthney bittikai lemon tea  bhat with mutton ko John br4ead Wirth avaacdos kiwi 3 pedas one rare Chau chuau with two boiled eggs and  ani fried rice ani one bourbon biscuit FITNESS worked out light EDUCATION didn't study at all INCOME GENERATION - STREAKS got off PLACES I WENT TO vacuum banauns gaaye and came back I played a lot of ml today I wanna kms but we will get through days like this

   HEALTH  im healthy, I have no issues at all with my body, though my back and posture is still bad SKIN  my skin is clearing up slowly but surely. I know what to do and I'm doing it DIET my diet chai is messed up. I eat outside on the regular and this is making me lose money too and making me not use my full potential. it's also ruining my potential. I need to cut sugar. I already cut dairy tho aaja I ate  surru ma  two bread and black Tea chupachips and real and a happy happy biscuit samosa and tarkari choila greentea stick food  pizza then Bhat with cauliflower ko tarkari FITNESS worked out very light today EDUCATION had first class of nepalese economics, ani a two hourish marketing class where we learnt about various things INCOME GENERATI ON talked with Swornim about the import thing attended most part of the commodity trading thing went to bank and inquired about debit card and dollar card STREAKS got off twice  no...

 aaiyaa idk man j hos not that bad of a day took a shower  cut my nails I went to marketing class oahila today ani I guess that's about ut?  gave flowers to muskan went to pimbahal spent some time with friends worked out didnt get off read himalyan attended seminar on commodity trading at least for the most part aniii called it a day> went back home dropped nicket ani didn't do much tbh played a little ml arranged classes and that's about ut>>>

 it is very cold worked out got off twice registered for commodity trading  skipped balkrishna sir ko class ani  went to mother's with Swornim  food was nice j hos and it was a fun tome came home at around 6  called it a day man winter sucks ass read himalyan I really really need to focus finance class ma aaiya anyway yhay'ws it for the day

 today was fonn got off bihana aaiya but fuck it we ball also  anii ok  so I baked brownies dueso and they tasted a lot better tbh anii I ate kei na kei? j hos aniiiiiii okokoko  I sold a lot of brownies  also I didn't know Divya smoked lmao ani I met a lot of fun people today  I went home at 7ish  gave sold brownies ko paisa to mom  ani  called it a day scooter ma not a lot of petrol remains anywayy life is v bijog but it its that bad too  idk what I'm saying aaiya worked out  didn't read himalyan but did business management ko assigbnemt  journaling at like 12:07 j hos not a bad day

 ok so today was not bad tbh j hos got off   HEALTH  alright tbh nothing that bad  lungs hurt a little in the morning but they better already also I need to start wearing a mask pretty soon as covid might resurge SKIN  tbh healing nail phase ma cha right rside ma very little pimples but fuck it we ball anywhooo it's getting there, I did figure out what's best for it and am still figuring out how to make things better for myself DIET didn't eat boiled eggs tbh just baked and called it a day bihana and sajha bhat and deuso ate chicken sandwich FITNESS I worked out for a pretty decent time. I need to maintain this amount tbh. and do it daily EDUCATION I didn't study much and hopefullyy I do aaba after I write this aaiya INCOME GENERATION baked things for the kusom biz thing, hopefully they sell aaiya STREAKS got off aaiya that too to a tiktok?  I'm judging myself and I'm doing it hard I keep falling back into old habit patterns because they're quite ...

 the culmination of my actions done those around me make up my identity today was not particularly a great day. Bihana met binayak sir and talked to him about the way I talked to him and why and how I should maintop a form of decorum when talking to peopole j hos today was a failure on my part perhaps I tried to make fortune cookies but ended up making a huge mess instead I played mobile games for like 5 hours in a single fucking Dayi have no sense of what is wrong and what is right when it comes to things like this.  J hos it feels like . wasted potential? I could have spent today in so much of a betterbway   HEALTH  . nothing that signidicant just I feel very lethargic due to excess gaming SKIN  .one pimple on left side of face but I popped it off immediately DIET .ate 4 egg yolks and one fried egg in the morning  ate a shit ton, like a legit dun of a sugar FITNESS .friday is rest and out day EDUCATION .one business management class, gave a...

   HEALTH  .light ruga khoki not that bad  posture ta  ramro khasai  Chiaia SKIN    . light new acne nothing that significant aura saab chai bistarai disapperaring didn't use skincare but idk how my skin is gonna turn out hopefully turns out good DIET ate a medium amount of pedas and didn't really eat a lot in the middle of the day ate rice and that's about it. FITNESS worked out lightly. nothing too heavy . EDUCATION .studied for business management ko test INCOME GENERATION kera mjui .ok j hos today was subpar didn't do much  dues ettikai gaaayo  I really really need to step my game up  and I need a cheat. to get ahead in life j hos all that goes well is well I hope things get better for me over time re k  mom has been working bahana Delhi she doesn't really feel that good hola I should get my act togeether and do it fast lmao  j hos fuck it we ball wi...

 HEALTH  light cough tbh not that bad but not that good either SKIN  j has some pimples I popped and that caused low self esteem. I won't ever consume dairy aaba DIET rlots of refined sugar and junk. probably the second last sat FITNESS worked out pretty light  nothing that good EDUCATION didn't study much  skipped one OB class and studied stats INCOME GENERATION nil mom and dad came back aaja  cleaned up the entire house and had a little scuffle with miss gf I need to understand her porperly absolutely no shouting at her at all I need to get that in my head j hos  I will do better aaba slept pretty late  didn't feel that good at all this wasn't that good a day but not too bad either

 aaiya idk man it's not that easy to get things done but fuck it we ball I need to get my shit together nature it's gonna be a constant slump that'll happen again and again and again I need to do something special and something different from what other people are doing j hos Aditya fucking pandey get your shit together  I lost one chance already but I don't plan on losing it once again j hos fuck it we ball I'll take oppourtunities as they come but I promise myself to grab them as soon as they present themselves because I can't wait again and again for the same shit mission is to get my act together and get my dreams acheved anyway  read himalyan over vm naii will workout I did get off too idk  also I cleaned the entire kitchen and yeah that's about it for my day I'll try to focus more on what's being taught in class maybe I'll start comsuming coffee and start sitting in the front benches so I can focus

 man I think the stress is getting to me again  it feels like it's a clean between my idealistic self and the actual me that's causing this j hos I don't remember much about this day had one finance class and one OB class  played basketball for a while and returned back home didn't do much tbh anywayy I needed to get my shit together  I bought veggies and made tarkari and then I called it a day  j his not a bad day I guess but not A PARTICularly good one eother I enjoy things a lot but I don't know by how much or by how I got off I didn't really worout I wonder why I'm constantly tired and don't have the energy ani aaiya also I think eaauta finance club meeting thio  also I think I unveiled MacBook in front of everyone today 

 today was a fun and nice day bihana chai I don't remember how it went deuso  ani rati chai first went to Oskar bar to eat with Oscar and subigya tespachi to teaching  picked up Anupam  went to suyogs  then to buddha bar @ thames and then I went to.  Suyog's to sleep drank 3 paani ko local rakhsi I had lots of fun this day I think I got off twice and  didn't workout and didn't read himalyan but fuck it we balll j has life goes on regardless of what happens I feel the need to get better at things  I need to improve myself concerning a lot of my aspects I need to be more careful and need to learn to work on the go I I had fun but I need to learn how to better myself hijio chai  had a burgerr late at night and that was absolutely delish

 ok so today was kinda Nice but I'm never gonna do this again unless I get to do something that s completely new my life is fun imma. nil but it's gonna fall apart if I don't keep things together I need to keep myself grounded and keep myself sanw I think that's what matters more in these troubled times aaiya tara I wonder what's the point of trading and all if AI can invest and run markets too can we train an AI to work like that j has this not that important what's important is thatch my day went like this  didn't workout got off  didn't read Himalayan despite buying it lmfao went to Mr Bhusal's graduation that's about it I'm going on a downward spiral and it can't possibly be a good thing I hope I can pick up a pace and make things a lot lot better tomorrow aaiya j hos fuck it we ball

 ok so today was decentish bihanaa chai not bad tho I had a good morning muji tespachi chai Binayak ko class oh my fucking god ani tespachi finance im not understanding much about finance tbh it can't possibly be a good thing but fuck it we ball j hos ani  got back home sat for a while receivfed a hoodie from miss gf went to see Anupam  replaced laptop ko cover twice not once lmapp ani  went to hospital and stayed there till 10 pm because of Anupam that mf returned back hime maitidevi ko baaato and  drove the opposite way oneway ma anyway got back home didn't read himalyan didn't workout was a very lazy day tbf  jhos notbad

 ok so I really really should get started with the fortune cookies fr j hos  aaja cooking and cleaning nai took up most of my time I got off to thirst traps on tt lmfao I should be ashamed of myself  I promise myself to not do it again this was the last time that happens aaiya j hos aani Baja  I brought bag back from Dipika and got home drank lemon tea at agan  ani that's about it tbh made rice ate two boiled eggs worked out lightly prepped for classes tomoroow and called it a day anyway fuck it we ball

ok so today was less eventful than I wanted it to be but still a decent day  bought Himalayan attended 3 classes ani  stayed at tin for a whoile drank tea at aagan anii called it a day went to global  sat at the table talk for a while enjoyed ani  came back home was a decent day not good not bad ate mutton so not having boiled eggs aaiya worked out light got off that's about it I miss miss gf

say yes  today was a dopamine filled day  maybe it has something to do with the fact that I wasn't on my phone a lot I genuinely enjoyed today fr ok so  bihana woke up and did my work  got off I HATE AYUSH THAPA MAGAR not much but Mann j hos today I attended two classes first of OB then of finance finance was decent OB was nice too J hos I did enjoy class even though I did find parts of it a bit boring anyhoo classes pacha went to the handicraft fest thing tespachi chai went to taraggaon and  then to G cafe it was a very fun and productive experience 8/10 day thoroughly enjoyed worked out lightly didn't eat protein but already ate enough so diet pugeko cha  pretty much आदित्य पाण्डे हाहा

 ok so today was kinda nice indrivered for the first time went to Subigya and Ishani's boerhtday worked out lightly called gf she slept at 4 I should make more time for her didn't read himalyan ran out of facewash so didn't wash face properly two classes  finance  time value of money ko appliction stats  probability ko advanced stuff  I should probably pay attention Aliya j hoss not a bad day didn't get off because I didn't have time or the place to'

अादित्य पाणडे  ok so first entry from MacBook  hi hello hiii j hos today was an eventful day  had fun ngl I had lots of fun aaja because today was the day I got this beauty of a MacBook im not gonna lie this is kinda nice a large upgrade from my previous device that was bulky as fuck I won't lie but it was nice  didn't really workout got off through the MacBook lmao aniii didn't read himalyan didn't fix schedule oooh in driver registration Garey Baja bidur mama came gave me dakshina ani moisturizer ani the MacBook

 today was slightly eventful but not as eventful as one would expect it to be  i woke up at like 9ish and had thikka levels of sleep not too muhc but not too little bihana muji machinki madi dai aayo he ruined my mood bihana ubt fuck it we ball  ate rice and banana ko achar (i have mized feelings about this aaiuya) i met anupam first gave dai ko controller to anupam ate pumpkin haleko momo lmfao ani  ate fries and regular buff momo suyog got sick because of the smoke also went to anupams and ate rara with eggs played a lot of tekken went back home i guess that;s about it will workout ate fried egg X1 j hos nice day\overall

  ok so today chai  i had one business management class  no assignments as of yet i dropped divya to art council to meet a sharana couldny spend a lot of time with miss gf as she didnt have a lot of time need to do a lot man  i can't seem to relax at all i feel not that good tbh i dont understand things and idk how they'll work at this rate i'm praying for better days to come ithink i need to clear my head up too that's about it for today skin is relatively clear  one pimpled popped up which was deflamed but thats it worked out abs  got off twice slept reallt really late

 this day started pretty late i didnt do anything major tbh i gave the new scoooter for servicing but had to pay 1255 because my olderbrother was late by around 25 days for it idk aaba j his i alsi went to rajkumari didi's but im gettiing the same excuse of bajaar ma paako chaina man  i need to steel myself for this i need to have some resolve pull yourself together  j hos this was an uneventful day i guess

 today was fine i liked it tbh dindnt eat boiled eggs SKIN  right side is nice looking left ma slightly pimply for some reason hair  was a good hair day got complimented on my dressing sense ate black tea with lemon at canteeen ani  lemon tea when i came home ani another cup of black tea nefore i brushed read himalyan but only to myself at library issued a new book about sir alexander bla bla ani aaja classes chai were very lethargiv surru maii ani  started wirh marketing end of chapter 2  ma'am gave a peice of paper and said we supposed to submit it on tuesday ani OB Ob ma we had a presenraron and we called ir a day lmfao  ani stats stats ma we learned probability ani just the initial parts tespacih went to bank but was closed  kept himalyan at scooter ko dikki i think that's about it for all i remember j hos not a bad day but not a good one either got off  worked out lightly haaa

 DIET ate bhat bihana ate kachar kuchur deuso ate juice and cake deuso>> maybe that's why i got the zit tbh ani  deuso went to thamel  went to siddartha went to mona  ate peda bharkhar idk man idk at all life isnt lifing WORKOUT very light as i didnt get personal space for myself to perform EDUCATION first ma OB class still have an assignment remaining i think tespachi Marketing class battti thiyena so class bhayena chya muji i hate not having a space of my own  kickstart project move out ASAP i'll do anything i can to save up and get out of this slump anything for getting a space of my own i'll move out and about and onto better things in life i need to  get going with all of my plans if not more here's a salient prayer for me to move onto better and bigger thingsin lige to infinity and beyond i wont pray i'll make this work through hardwork determination and sheer fucking will  i will fucking do this i am not a passerby in this story  i am...

 i hwokeup pretty late todayued  i dodnt erally do much  filled PAN card tho got off didnt workout much FOOD bihana rice and banana ko tarkari deuso black tea and nothing in particular tbh got back homr and ate a sndwich and black tea ate rice with mashyuera EDUCATION bihana finance class didnt really pay attention :(( presentation bhako thio and sir taught about  something i dont fucking remember tespachi stats class sir taight about finding measures of dispersion man i really really need to pay attention  jindagi pacchi tanaab huncha natra first bencher aaba dekhi for all subs FINANCE just watched didnt act uopn anything oday biding my time in i i did rot a lot toady i'll set a site timer of an hour at most because what the fuck is up with my reading habitsa anywaythat's it pe

 didnt really study anything  Diet ate around 3 pedas today had banana ko tarkari ko achar worked out lightly but not too lightly ate two fried eggs and fried rice didnt do anything productive despite me wanting to i think i shoujld stop feeling sorry for myself this is just  self  defeating idk mman how am i supposed to have the energy for all this  im haunted by ambition and i fear of my inaction im also insecure about how i look i feel like \ cocooning im scared of the light im afraid to be seen im a house of cards  i am but a lie a lie built on a web of other lies unable to extricate myself from this identity i've created for myself i am haunted by myself that voice in my head with seemingly no end to it's lack of shame perhaps it isnt human or maybe it is i am an observer in my own life as soon as i encounter any adversity i let my unconscious self take over i don't consciously act till the last possible moment  my unconscious self has the control...

   this day wasn't eventful NO health complications no skin issues last day without mom  didnt workout had two classes businesss management and  finance finance test coming soon

  didnt do nothing  rested all day  was fun i didn't do anything  didn't eat boiled eggs read Himalayan but not to her didnt doanything in particular tbh was supposed to fill pan information but didnt  i hate myself for my endless procrastination i will get better at this hopefully didnt study didnt wash face didnt brush workedout lightly

 HEALTH: ruga persists. halka khoki  back ta still bad naii posture correct garnu gararo cha WEALTH: didnt contribute to this at all aaja ta aaiya EDUCATON: didnt study anything  FITNESS: limited to 1- pushups because of lack of personal space and laziness in general SKIN AND HAIR: popped two pimples on upper left side of face light acne which will hopefully disappear GENERAL DAY : ok so i shaved today played ML a lot lmao also finished a lot of webnovels> it seems like this is also an activity that i dont wish to stop at all also i did scroll through scicial media a lot and i dont really feel that well but fuck it we ball anyway i dont feeel that good and halka ta ruga nai laako cha also i sat on call with miss gf for like two hours also plushie deliver bhayo re anyway that's about it i feel whack as fuvck FOOD: ate cauli ko jhol and bhat bihana  deuso rara and fried eggs lemon honey tea and some biscuits ani evening ma daal bhat dhaniya ko chutney ani carrots an...